Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Wondering

I'm in a strange place and time in my life...wondering where I fit in. Being single, childless and over 35 yrs old puts you in a confusing category in life. You don't really fit into any "category". You don't fit in with your married friends. You're a third wheel. You don't fit in with unmarried parents because your life doesn't revolve around children and their activities. Hanging out with these people can cause you heartache because it is a constant reminder of what you don't have and that you're alone. Time with family comes first so most of the time you don't really get to hang out with them much anyway. So again I wonder where I fit in. You don't fit in with people younger than you because you are not interested in going to the club and you're too old to go there anyway. You don't fit in the "singles" group at church because its a group of non-married couples. And again you're reminded you're alone. (I have NO idea why its called a singles group because it NEVER is...)So here I am searching for a place to feel I belong.

1 comment:

Anneliese said...

I have at times thought about how it must feel for single people when all their peers are married and busy with their families etc. I can imagine how left out one could feel and I'm sorry that the group of singles you know are not really singles.
Maybe you could try another church? It is easy to check online who offers care groups or Bible study groups for young adults... sometimes it's a group of mixed - mrried and single.. other times just singles ... you don't want a dating service ... just friends who want to do things together. This time in your life is when you can have much to give because you don't have family obligations. One suggestion would be to go on a short term ministry trip to help women or children. One never comes back the same! I noticed that you work with kids and so you have a great opportunity to influence them there too!
May God give you the desires of your heart as you delight yourself in Him.